Bio/Unit data

>> name: Ivan
>> location: Classified
>> hobbies: playing guitar,drums,
>> sports,computer games,
>> kayaking,building models
>> & reading history...

Friday, June 10, 2005 ~ OB OB

okie... i guess my last post was kinda hard to read... so here's a better one...
Well today i watched Mr & Mrs Smith... not a bad show.. lots of guns & action plus brad pitt & angelina jolie were pretty good! haha... The marriage councilling was the BEST part about the whole show... believe me! watch it & u'll be laughing too! Then after that went for OB training! haha.. that was funn! hmm... we'll be having I-Camp & soccer in the next 3 weeks... and im the keeper! Pray that i'll do a great job! haha...

Well, i think that i've been lagging for too long... I look terrible now... I think i've slacked too much & i just dont bother to groom myself anymore... i mean my hair's a mess... i dont shave,so i look really untidy... I am a mess. GOD!!! HELP ME!!
I've just broken a rule that i once made... and that is never to post anything about love or stuff that's really close to my heart... wHy? well i just didnt want people to bother...
funny isnt it? Here i am... helping others, meditating conflicts, but yet when it comes to myself i cant even do anything...

Here's the punch line... Im letting go of my past... clinging on to it is useless... good bye past... Where does my path lie? I dare not look out & see the future... i guess im scared. Im scared that i will focus on the path that i dont want to walk on... and that it will lead me to disaster... Help me God! I need you...
I need you....
Im not complete without u! this is my cry...

Peacekeeper... ceased transmission on Friday, June 10, 2005