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Friday, July 27, 2007 ~ When I blinked, the universe changed

When I blinked, the universe changed... Suddenly, one realises that certain realitites that were once true are no longer true. Things i've enjoyed are no longer enjoyed. Things i've valued are suddenly not so important anymore. The universe changed. But the rules are still the same.

Sometime ago, a couple of us during one of our sessions discussed who would get attached first.. ironically the order that we decided was the opposite! Certainly the 1st will be the last & the last the first! I feel very happy even over joyed for my friend who got attached! Congrats!!! :) I'm really happy for u & hope it works out! hehe.. looking forward to the wedding!

However that incident brought out a long time of reflection... I'm wondering where im going... The gang of people that I were close to last time seem to be so distant & far away... It seems that the universe doesnt care anymore... At the moment im trying to come up with a list of gd things that have happened recently.. and nothing much significance comes up.. i'm thankful to God for the little things that have happened.. but i really want more to happen.. I'm sick of being left behind here... I'm tired of seeing breakthroughs happen all over & people getting up & on but i'm still here despite all that i've tried to do! I'm thankful for the little victories but it's not enough.. I'm tired to seeing everyone have success, i WANT IT TOO! HELP ME LORD! Help me be strong & dependent on u & give me success! No more failure or lavising @ the bottom of the food chain... I HATE HOLDING BACK! I REGRET HOLDING BACK SINCE PRI SCHOOL! NO MORE! NO MORE! NO MORE!

I WILL DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME! IT IS BECAUSE OF CHRIST THAT I WILL PROPSPER & DO THE EXACT THINGS THAT PEOPLE & ME HAVE THOUGHT WERE IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME! AMEN!

Peacekeeper... ceased transmission on Friday, July 27, 2007