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Saturday, September 15, 2007 ~ chasing donkeys

Everyday we chase donkeys. The everyday mundane things that we do, from doing the chores of the house to doing area cleaning to rifle & even vehicle cleaning. BUT while Saul was out chasing the donkeys that he had lost... God was setting up his stage to be chosen to be the king of Israel! I must admit after more then a year in the army, things have become jaded, I wonder if I am a soldier or just some highly trained milita conscript? What have I done these few months & years that have impacted people? SO many questions. and I dont have answers. Once I would have demanded answers... but not anymore.. it's no longer important to know the why. That's obedience. I once read how at many times obedience is something that can't be explained and now I understand why. I cant remember how many times i've seen blank stares or the "i cant believe your giving everything good up for that!" face when I try to explain why I've taken this path. Perhaps it's due to my lack of being able to explain it well? But I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that they can never understand truely why, perhaps in the future they might.. and perhaps in the future I will understand why I've chosen to obey and follow this path. A long and trying one.

Recently, I've gotten an offer to sign on as an Armored Infantry or maybe Tank officer... My Platoon Sgt is encouraging me to sign and so are some friends.. it's tempting. and totally against the flow of play. So much confusion! So many doors! Do i have what it takes? Or will I continue with the plan- College & ROTC? I know my calling is there! The army or foreign services!

On the camp front, it's weird being vehicle 2IC coz it seems all the regulars whom u meet to work with(mostly whom are 2 SGTs or 1 SGTs)seem to tongue tied that an enlisted man, a CPL no less, is doing the job of a 3SG- a comander's job. Still I'm determinded to do my best & make sure all the work's done well! Though I admit that the lack of rank does hinder me sometimes.. Things at camp have been busy busy busy! In between packing for australia(not to mention the KILLER inpsection by the aussies), LRI, NTM & all the standbys... it's hard to find rest & peace & quiet... I really want to finish up my applications & send them out before I leave for wallaby! God, I need time & inspiration to do this!

Speaking of wallaby, I'm so looking forward to wallaby though it means I'll have to miss birthdays,both my cells and time with friends & family... :( I've been enjoying the company of my friends recently and it's been amazing! Finally went out with the usual gang of ernie(and not forgetting his special gal.. :P caroline!),vennie,mel, jon, chris etc.. and I must say it was great finally being able to go out with them all! had such a wonderful time at the Hong kong street resturant... :) Hopefully I can meet up with the guys again before wallaby!

To a better week... and Open doors!

Peacekeeper... ceased transmission on Saturday, September 15, 2007